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There was no hesitation in his voice, no guarded suspicion. He spoke my name with a familiar, effortless inflection, as if we had spoken only yesterday. For a heartbeat, the air left my lungs. I hadn’t realized how much I had missed the specific pitch of his voice until it was vibrating against my ear. When I finally found my own voice, it sounded thin and brittle, like the ice on the pavement. I explained the situation—the stalled engine, the cold, the fact that I was sitting right outside his door.
There was a brief pause, long enough for the old fears of rejection to rush back in, cold and sharp. Then, he spoke four words that dismantled three years of pride: “Don’t move. I’m coming.”
We spent the next hour working in the cold. He helped me navigate the logistics of the breakdown, stayed with me while we determined the car needed a professional mechanic, and eventually insisted I come inside to warm up while we waited for the tow truck.
Inside his apartment, the air smelled of cedar and old books. We sat in his small kitchen, our hands wrapped around warm mugs, talking about nothing of consequence. We discussed the weather, the city’s failing infrastructure, and the health of our aging parents. The heavy, soul-clearing conversations didn’t happen that night. We didn’t dissect the anatomy of our fallout or assign blame for the lost years. We didn’t have to.
What settled between us in that quiet kitchen was a realization far more profound than any apology. The distance we had maintained hadn’t erased the bond; it had only stretched it to its absolute limit. I saw in the way he offered me a seat, and the way he remembered exactly how I took my coffee, that the foundation was still there. We had been pretending that the space between us was an ocean, when in reality, it was just a hallway we were both too afraid to walk down.
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