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The blue-white glare of the hospital corridor lights always felt like they were vibrating by the time I finished a double shift. I’m thirty-three, a mother of two, and a woman who has become an expert in the exhausting art of the “slow crawl.” Ever since my husband executed a three-year-long disappearing act—fading from texts, to calls, to complete silence—it has been just me and my girls, aged five and seven. To them, Christmas is a high-stakes, magical enterprise of crooked letters to Santa and intense debates over cookie varieties. To me, it’s a tactical operation involving extreme budgeting and the hope that our ancient furnace holds out for one more winter.
Two days before Christmas, the world was encased in a treacherous glaze of black ice. I was driving home, my brain a messy list of half-wrapped presents and the mental location of our “Elf on the Shelf.” The girls were safe at my mother’s house, likely sugar-crashing after a marathon of holiday movies. I was daydreaming about my own bed when I saw her.
I pulled over. The passenger window rolled down with a protest of frost. Up close, the woman looked like she had been hollowed out by the cold. Her hair was a mess, her lips were chapped to the point of bleeding, and the baby in her arms—a tiny thing with cheeks the color of a winter sunset—had one stiff, red hand curling out of a thin blanket.
“I missed the last bus,” she said, her voice brittle. “I don’t have anywhere to go.”
She didn’t have a phone, she didn’t have family nearby, and she didn’t have a plan. I looked at that baby, whose name I soon learned was Oliver, and I looked at my small, creaky house just a few blocks away. Before my fear could mount a counter-argument, I opened the door. “Get in. You’re staying at my place tonight.”
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